Wave of emotions struck me when SIM caught up during the last 10m, narrowly edging out NTU. My heart sank literally. The same happened during the Men open Grand Finals where NJC caught up at the last 6 strokes to win a surprise bronze from us.
Putting in almost 21 hrs a week training for this race, it was devastating to see results like this. Looking at the tears that my fellow team mates and brothers had shed after the race, it just going to fuel our hunger even more for next yr PM cup. We are not going to let up our CUP just like tt.
What could I say is that we are not a lousy team, luck just isnt on our side. For almost 90% of our race, we were leader of the pack for the first 300m, yet only to be caught up at the end. I guess our maintainence stroke had to be fine-tuned.
But to all teams who might think tt NTU is going downhill, I could only say that you have woke up a sleeping dragon.
NTU SA!!!
She will be missed dearly by all her loved ones. =)
TRAINING.
Why do we wake up so early every saturday morning? What do we want? We have train so hard, but why are we still stagnant?
ALl this are points raised up for our pondering. One of my team mates raised up the point of cheating yourself. You may train alot. But did you put in effort in every training? IF yes, good for you cos you will improve. If not, that the reason why you are stagnant. You may run alot, but running still will not improve cos you are running within your comfort zone.
That really stuck me. I guess I am been cheating myself on and off. On some occasion, when I feel lethargic, I will simply follow through the training. Eagerly waiting for the training session to end. On a positive note, there are also many occasion whereby I also push to my limit. =D
I believe it all about attitude. You may have the apitude, but without the right attitude, you apitude will be put to waste and eventually, you will end up nowhere.
Enough of dragonboating.
I just came back from my grandma place. There was a reunion dinner.
As everyone knows, Singaporean are always busy and it always seems hard to get EVERYONE down for a simple gathering. So, days before the gathering, my aunt sent a SMS to everyone and it goes: " Hi, we will be having a reunion dinner this sat and do make yourself free cos this will be the last CNY you will spend with ahma".
After reading this, a wave of sadness overwhelm me. I could still vivdly remember the days when my grandmother was pink and healthy. Looking at the current state she is in, I am really really sad. =(
Coincidentally, today is the 7th day of CNY and 7th day is interpreted as 'human' day when we lao yu sheng to celebrate the birth of mankind.
However, the joyous mood was not felt just now.
Everyone has to put on a brave front when we are talking to her. She wont want us to be sad because of the state she is in.
Full recovery is almost impossible. What I can hope is that the agony she is going through currently will be reduced to the minimum. Hopefully, this year wont be the last new year I will celebrate with my grandma.
Om Mani Padme Om
Even if I do remember my password, I guess I will not have spare time to blog. CCA, school committments, studies, tuition etc... are all taking their fair share of time away from me.
There is a saying. 'Treasure your love one before they are gone'.
I used to think that the sentence sounds very corney. haha.
But after what has happened during the past 3 months, the sentence really struck me deep inside.
I guess going through uneventful events during the past few months really alter the wiring in my brain. I feel that the way I think and process my thoughts has changed for the better.
My grandma has been diagnosed with last stage of cancer a few months back. Looking at the transformation my grandma has been through really overwhelm me with sadness.
She has been reduced to just bones by all the chemotherapy, etc...
I guess I wont feel so sad if I had consistently show care and concern to my grandma.
Right now, I really hope my grandmother can live longer so that I can shower her with concern that I have not been doing for the past few years.
The weekly visit to her house gradually become fortnightly and subsequently monthly as I grow older.
Now that her days are numbered. I really wish that I have more time to visit her and show her my care and concern.
Now thinking back to the 1990s, I am really thankful toward my grandma for what she has done for me and my siblings when we are young.
Those beautiful memories will continue to stay with me forever and it those memories that piece up my childhood together.
Recently, my father is down with stroke too. But using this experience, I am certain that I will care for my father until he recovers and leave no regrets.
At this current juncture of my life, I will really treasure my relationship with everyone around me and I will continue to. =). And I hope everyone does the same also.
It has been so long since I actually logged onto live journal. I am rather surprise that they didn't delete my account. -_-
Nevertheless, I shall post something today since I have logged in to live journal(which I hardly do). haha
While I was reading my older post just now, I chanced upon one entry that says
" C'mon kenneth, you still have 5 more months to go".
Reality check. Now I am left with one more month plus to go. Time really flies man. Test and proven. It alway amazing when you look back and reflect on what had happened in tt span of time.
As usual, many things had happened in that few months. Be it good things or bad things.
I really appreciate the superior I have now. They never fail to bring me on track when I veered away. Thanks you guy.
In my life, I have never seen a boss like them. So forgiving. I really appreciate what they have done for me. =D
Anyway, school is starting soon and I am having Mix feeling nw. I will be back to studying days soon and I am definitely sure that I will complain about studying once i start schooling.
I will be off to Philippines next wed. I will miss Nic bdae. Never mind, I have gotten him his bdae prez. haha.
In anycase, I am so broke man. Going to 'pu' my 'yuan qi' after the trip. Cannot anyhow waste money anymore.
And to JINGYU who might chanced upon this post. I am following your advice, blog whatever I can. haha.
Anyway, It getting late. Going to sleep now!!
All the best to those performing for DND.
Time really flies. In a blink of an eye, I have already worked for 4 months already.
4 months- Adequate enough for Singapore Pools to collect 48 rounds of 4d bet
- it good enough for 2 batches of BMT recruits to pass out from Tekong
- sufficient for a hard core soccer fan to watch world cup 4 times(repeat back to back. haha)
2x4 months- It about time that a pregnant mother should give birth.
and many many many more things.
Think about it, within this short span of 4 months, we can already do so much things.
Hence, Within this 4 months, I really learn alot of things in JNP. Be it hard or soft skill.
I felt really blessed to be in this organisation even though I think that I am the most problematic PA so far in the 8 years history of JNP.
I dont believe there will be any PA in JNP who will be more problematic than I am. Be it in the near future or the past.
Cmon kenneth, This is not something to be proud of. -_-'''. Stop saying as if you are top of the class.
Then again. Realising what you want in life is very very important. It only in JNP, then I realise the importance and principles of being a wholesome person and what type a person I want to be.
Really regretted not making use the resources in my 10 years of education in Buddhist school.
4 more months I will be leaving for school.
I think I will appreciate the people here even more especially those who show extra care and concern for me when I have done something wrong. My three bosses esp one who nvr fail to me bring back on track. Thanks man.
Hey!!! This isn't suppose to be an emo post.
Gotta turn in now and find zhou gong to play chess.
I couldnt believe it. My SWAY meter for the past few days is to the max.
First, I kena a 30 bucks summon yesterday. Dont ask me how i get it.
Now, I just lost 52.5 bucks in the session of mahjong just now. It could have been more if my boss didnt halve it. I really appreciate their thoughts alot. But I will really like to pay what I have lost. =(
What a way to start my CNY. Shoo! Shoo! Bad luck! please fuck off.
Just came back from JNP sports day just now. Quite fun and enjoyable. Just that I feel out of place at some part of the time. Hmmm..
I dont know why am I harbouring this thought, I keep having the urge to quit my current job. And the urge happens periodically and randomly.
However, I have given my words that I will stay until June and this(the thoughts) cant continue if I want to stay until June. there is still 5 more months to go.
I know that I shouldnt be thinking this way cos being a PA, you are actually required to do that. Furthermore, what makes you think that you can survive outside if you cant survive here. Lastly, Egoism will lead to the downfall of a man
If given a choice, will not coming into JNP at the very beginning be better for me?
To me, that is really something worth pondering over.
Maybe my thoughts will not be so confusing, and I will not be stuck in dilemmas. In fact, I may be enjoying my Happy-Go-Lucky lifestyle. Earning enough to get by, yet, I dont have to make decisions that will affect the rest of my life.
No doubt, being successful is the dream of everyone. However, Successful is a very subjective term.
To majority. being successful= earn big bucks, drive luxury, stay at landed property, etc all the material stuff
To another ' = enjoy good well being, maintaining healthy relationship with our love one
To me it is the latter that defines successful. I would not deny the fact that money is important to me. But relationship is of higher importance. I would not want to quarrel with my parents over my career path.
I would not want to dwell on this topic any further.
Good night everyone
Tomorrow will be a better day, HAO YUN LAI, HUAI YUN ZHOU!!
I JUST REALISED I HAVEN"T SET MY 2009 NEW YEAR RESOLUTION.
Then again, It never too late to start. =P
Anyway, I am a easily contend-ed guy. So I wont ask too much from myself. =D
1) Achieve positive personal growth
2) Maintain good relationship with all the people around me
3) To find my goal in life. Sound rather corney huh? haha
4) Save up enough for my uni in Aug( if i even bother to study).
That all for now. See, I am a easily contended guy. i only have 4 goals to meet. I not like some other people whose list can form a thesis.
Yah, I had dinner at carnivore(CHJIMES) yesterday with the usual cliques.
FREAKING FULL la and right now, I am still feeling the bloating effect. I am so going to be a herbivore for today and tomorrow. -_-'''
QIngliang going to Taiwan for his SISPEC ASLC training. So sad la, he going to miss day6-day15 of the new year celebration. Nevertheless, that part of parcel of serving NS.
We will be rob of our public holidays. In return, they wil give us off in lieu on days we dont want to(like tuesday? wednesday?). What a FAIR trade hor!!
My christmas, CNY were just robbed away last year. =(
ARGH!! I am trying my best to stay awake. Every year, I keep telling myself to shou sui. But every year, I will sleep eventually. BUT!!!! this year will be the one man, I wont sleep. haha
Alright, I have nothing to blog about already! See you people. Have a great year ahead
Anyway, i have been really careless in my paperwork this few days. Forms are missing. Particulars not fill up properly, aiya, all those minute stuffs that I keep overlooking even though I keep reminding my self not to commit again.
I was even 'reminded' by my direct superior la. Damnit...
Nvm, I shall put all this at the back of my head until next wed.
Anyway, wish everyone a prosperous new year in the year of Ox.
At least i have finish cleaning. That will spare me 2 months of my mum nagging. haha.
Okay, I shall take a nap nw. Going to meet Ming song later at east coast park later..
And my boss are back from their AGM. So going to miss the serenity of the office when there are less than 10 ppl inside at any time of the day.
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